A little secret.

These are the diaries I made so far. In every entry I tried to get the month and the year in. Can you find the dates? Some you aren't able to see because of the way the picture is taken, some are in your face and some are more difficult. I am curious what you find out. Let me know!

July is done (but April, May and June aren't!).

Yes, still somewhat behind (snicker), but working. Right now I am enjoying my holiday and am able to bead some. So, here is July 2009. Not much symbolism that I am aware of. I had to tidy up my bead stash and saw these colors laying together. They looked like summer to me, so I started to use them and just stitched away. In retrospect it reminds me of the park I am cycling through to get to work: all the flowers and greens and the paths in the fields.

I am thinking about June, that will be the next one I'll do. If you feel like it: please let me know what you think. Thank you!

March is done

Now I am two months behind. Yes, I feel the pressure!
Here is March.
My bankcard is glued on stiff stuff and I used the colors of my bank. I made a web for the financial web in which a lot of people are caught. And were I am sometimes caught in, or at least it feels that way. This month is about our finances. With two children going to daycare for 3 days a week, a house and all that, we have to take care. Or better: I have to take care, since I am known to have these outbursts of moneyspending. I put some old European coins in the web: worthless money. That is how it feels to me with this global economical crisis. I count my blessings: two beautiful, great, healthy boys, a super husband (although we are not married), a rewarding job, all of our parents around, and so much more.
I love to hear your comments!

BJP February 2009

February is done. Here are my thoughts about it. Since the Chinese New Year has started in February I put down a dragon and the Chinese character for Ox (the year of the Ox has started). For me thinking about China is connected with the Tibethan culture and their struggle for freedom. March 10 is my birthday and also the day the Tibet was invaded by the Chinese. So I put down the Tibethan year that started in February too: 2136. In dots.

It defines a new start, spring is on its way, I start to awaken again.

I like the all white part. Since there are no colors to distract your attention goes to the form. All these tiny little parts that lay together and form something bigger is one of the reasons why I am so attracted to beads. I like the black and white with one more color. Because that works with almost all colors.

So, I would like to know what you think about it!

Still alive

Haven't fallen out of the BJP yet. Really! I have December 2008 and January 2009 to show for it. And started on the February 2009. Still too late, but hanging in there.

December was busy. Making some bracelets for Christmas, I didn't have much inspiration for December. I wanted to use red and green because they fit the Christmas theme and because they are out of my comfort zone. Apart from that I didn't know what was going to happen on the circle.

The colors still are out of my comfort zone. I am not very pleased with the result because of that. I do like the little Christmas tree, because that was improvised and turned out good. And I like having experimented.

So for January I used colors I like. And the ton-sur-ton that I am addicted to. The colors are for a new beginning, a fresh start. Not yet full of color but getting there. In the middle is a tibethan sign, I don't know what it is for (I remember for a long, prosperous life, but I am not sure). And I was thinking mandala. Maybe it is a bit boring, but I like it a lot.

For February I am thinking Chinese New Year, a dragon, year of the ox, Tibethian year of 2136, black, white, red.

March maybe something with flowers and loss of money. We are on a tight budget these days so it might be good to bead about it.

Next time I will show you the bracelets I finally made for myself. Again in the same angle as the last ones I was showing, but heck, I wanted some for myself!

BJP November is done.

November has been ready for some time now. And here it is. This time I wasn't stubborn anymore in not leaving stiff stuff at the edges. With it the circles are much easier to attach to something (I haven't decided what yet).

I used grey and black beads, charlottes, silver seedbeads, plastic beads, pressed glass, chips, gemstone slice, tag and pendant. It is supposed to symbolize the November greyness that hangs around our houses nowadays. It can be dull but it also has a certain bluesiness and its own misty chic.

I beaded a lot when Obama got chosen and I searched for a tag with "hope" on it. But "dream" might even be a better word. How far do you dare to dream, what do you allow yourself? It also is a question I asked my clients a lot lately.

I sometimes feel like I am living my dreamlife now. And most of the time I am busy doing other things. I need to realise more often how blessed I am and how much I like it now. Instead of thinking what I am going to do after the baby had it's bottle I want to focus my attention on feeding my little baby, smell him, hear the little sounds, feel his little arms around my fingers, see the blond hairs and his big eyes. I know that when I look back at this time it will be one of the happiest times of my life. And I want to be able to feel that right now, while it is happening. That is what this diary also is about.

Ofcourse it is much better in real life: more shine and glitter. Let me know what you think!

Another one

This bracelet I made for my mother for Christmas, because she said she'd like something in blue. But when she saw the first one she said: I would very much like that in black.....

So, now I think I can make my MIL very happy with this. I like the blue with copper.

Waddayathink?