dinsdag 2 december 2008

BJP November is done.

November has been ready for some time now. And here it is. This time I wasn't stubborn anymore in not leaving stiff stuff at the edges. With it the circles are much easier to attach to something (I haven't decided what yet).
I used grey and black beads, charlottes, silver seedbeads, plastic beads, pressed glass, chips, gemstone slice, tag and pendant. It is supposed to symbolize the November greyness that hangs around our houses nowadays. It can be dull but it also has a certain bluesiness and its own misty chic.
I beaded a lot when Obama got chosen and I searched for a tag with "hope" on it. But "dream" might even be a better word. How far do you dare to dream, what do you allow yourself? It also is a question I asked my clients a lot lately.
I sometimes feel like I am living my dreamlife now. And most of the time I am busy doing other things. I need to realise more often how blessed I am and how much I like it now. Instead of thinking what I am going to do after the baby had it's bottle I want to focus my attention on feeding my little baby, smell him, hear the little sounds, feel his little arms around my fingers, see the blond hairs and his big eyes. I know that when I look back at this time it will be one of the happiest times of my life. And I want to be able to feel that right now, while it is happening. That is what this diary also is about.
Ofcourse it is much better in real life: more shine and glitter. Let me know what you think!